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Ongoing personal experiences with extraordinary and unexplained seen/unseen phenomena underscore my belief in a world abundant with wonders we haven't yet begun to fathom.

Experiencers, via their unique encounters, give us glimpses and clues to what potentials creation has yet to reveal when we are willing to listen to the call of the muse and curious enough to table our fear and explore the unknown inner and outer limits of being.

And the answers are there, teasing us in quirks, quarks and fantastic anomalies.

My proof
- and that is the whole point of this reality thing being very personal and unique to the individual experiencer - the light beside me goes off for a moment and then comes on again as I am composing this introduction, underscoring the "quirk" factor and the representation of the ever-present, unseen support in this adventure.

Thank you for your interest and for listening. I hope you enjoy the shows! - wendy ... and the nightlights ;)

Monday, April 30, 2007

Working through Goodbye

You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you. -- Frederick Buechner -- Quotegarden.com

Piecing together bits of my Father's fragmented and troubled life, it is easy to imagine how things could have been different. It isn't easy to see how they might have been better.

Estranged for most of my adult life, he was mentally ill; the deck was stacked against him. Good things done by numerous, caring others throughout his lifetime - would eventually become undone. Mental illness always won.

His last small victory came at the end. Diagnosed as incapable of independent living, for a very brief time, he managed to elude one more loving support system long enough to do just that. Cancer finally stopped him.

He was quite capable of creating a colorful world. I kept my distance to maintain a solid boundary and struggled with that choice at times - even though I well knew the consequences of becoming too close. His illness ensured those who braved close contact would become targets of his delusions.

To that end, my father depended upon the kindness of strangers. I am very grateful to anyone who takes time to give a kind word, a smile, or an offer of making a connection for a stranger. We have no cure for mental illness and my father isn't the only one who suffered/s with it.

His condition allowed him to immediately befriend anyone new -- and strongly rebel against those who loved him. He offered me my greatest challenges in life - to love those we know too well - and to respect (no matter what the outward opinion) the need for boundaries.

A favorite memory is skewed and out of date but I keep that picture of my dad. I must be seven or eight and he is trying to show me how to bait a hook. I preferred to liberate the bait but listened. After careful instruction, I still went through a lot of minnows...even more worms. He knew and said nothing because he liked to fish. I didn't have to do it right. The company was enough.

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