How does one reconcile the transcendent experience of a lifetime, giving it a greater presence in the present that still allows one to resume a normal routine? How can one manage the overwhelm of anomaly and extraordinary wonder with no way to translate it into manifest form? I still can't fully explain what has happened and is happening to me.
|Potential ... Image credit: Wendy Garrett|
This summer has flown by. Each time I started to write, life picked up the pace and called me to other projects.
My metaphysical realm is shifting. There is a tremendous sense of energy and light pouring into the manifest plane at an intense level and that can create a challenge when one has to find a way to balance the overload of stimulation.
Chaos is now manifesting in many forms. The challenge is to harness and direct that energy rather than trying to fight or reject it.
My past coping method was to add to my list of projects or increase the "to do" list with something that had a deadline and forced steady focus. However, my perspective on that has completely changed and I find myself rebelling. I don't feel the need to shut down or limit my options. I also don't feel compelled to share the personal wonders I experience as strongly as I have in the past. I would rather keep the focus on the exploration and the search to validate the experiences others are having and present those to a wider audience.
My own unusual and unexplained events and happenings are now so much a part of me and so many more transcendent stories are available that I am increasingly happy just going with the flow.
I wake up knowing the presence of my blinking nightlight is a constant and whatever I choose to ask or request from my spirit companions is simply a pastime and a life experience for me. It's personal and special just for that. The external world response doesn't change how I experience it nor am I required to document or attempt an explanation.
In the beginning, it felt so important for me to share and relate that this stuff is not an unnatural occurrence but a very necessary step in the process as humans undergo an upgrade in our conscious awareness and an expansion of our intuitive abilities.
I also wanted to demonstrate that life didn't have to take a 180 or require one to retreat from public life to experience greater elements of the paranormal and metaphysical realities. Even though that is exactly what initially happened as I tried to figure out what the heck all this stuff meant and how it fit into my world. That part was a rocky transition.
It seems, without planning or knowing what it would look like, I have achieved my goal as I worked it through. Thus, the desire to put the nightlight stuff out there has shifted to enjoying it and celebrating the novelty that companionship brings to my life.
I am now doing jobs I thought I had to forgo in order to preserve some sort of credibility when all along it wasn't about whether anyone else thought my story to be credible. It was about me knowing - no matter what the external chorus chose to reflect - my reality remains simply that: my reality.
A wonderful world it is. What next? This what I am living to discover. And my nightlights are right beside me via that amazing illuminated display. Even when there are no nightlights, their energy is ever-present. That is what I had to integrate and become comfortable expressing.
Nearly two decades after this enigma began, I can say I am finally secure in that knowing state. Now, I can go forward and bring in the next piece of the puzzle. Going with the flow and sensing the energy along the way. As they told me a long time ago, the lights are part of our illusion. Each and every one of us is lit from within.
What was it I was fighting in myself for so long? Trust. Funny thing, that. I truly thought I had that one handled. I did trust my actions and the spirit guidance that comes as part of this work.
What I had to struggle against and delve much deeper to address turned out to be a need to trust my reactions.
And that is the work in progress as the lights remain - my illuminating present. Such a gift I must have worked lifetimes to bring through. It keeps the child in me alive, ever curious, ever fascinated. What wonders have we yet to recover, discover, explore?
They're all here. Life is amazing! Reality, even more so.